Everything seems upside down.

Had a terrible day in guitar. Things just didn't go right at all. Attendance was quite bad..so many late comers..we took a long time to get practices going for the open house..the brochures got rejected by Ms Ding..and the gifts are not prepared. And I was practically stoning during the 2hr. After all I was with the seniors for the past 6months due to syf..and now I have to face one whole group of new faces in the ensemble. I felt so lost you know. And Yong Guan had the seminar thing, Li Yue had maths soc meeting. I had nobody to talk too except Liang Hong and Kar Fu. So..it was terrible.

It's very bad. I'm supposed to be reading my Chem notes and do some work you know. Chem tutorial is the first thing in the morning. But I'm just stoning away. Refusing to face reality. Thinking it's the end of the world soon. And are things really going to change for the better? We're like getting back our exam scripts this week you know. It's just going to become worse in school..I can feel it.

Rehearsals on Thur and Fri for open house? Stupid open house. I feel so sian about it. And I have a long day tmr..and we still have P.E in the afternoon. Can someone give me something that I can rejoice about?

I looked so bad today that Xuan Yi asked me if I was ok. She was saying "last time you always laughing away..talking non stop..how come today like so buay song"? I just stared back at her blankly, trying to cough up some excuse for my weird behaviour.

Somehow I just have this feeling that everybody needs prayers at this point of time. I was wondering..what happened.

Somebody give me a big hug.